A Turbulent Time

It's been a while from I was last here, I have been working overseas and have not had much time for the more spiritual things in life.

I picked out the FIVE OF CUPS card this morning as a daily reading, and I feel that it sums up the energy that is surrounding me at the moment.

Two weeks ago I was 'let go' from my job, and it came as a massive surprise, even though, if I'm totally honest, I wasn't enjoying it at all!

I never felt like I truly fitted in, one or two of my colleagues seemed genuinely interested in me as a person, but the majority were definitely faking it!

I felt exploited, almost used, at times, and I was always aware of that vague feeling of insincerity amongst my colleagues.

In the week before my dismissal, I was beginning to feel invisible. And the one person I felt might say goodbye, just ignored my last 'sayonara' email.

This was one of the few people that I formed any kind of connection with, and the silence that followed was hurtful.

This card sums up exactly how I am feeling at the moment. I feel sad at the loss of my job, but only from a financial stand point. I had already emotionally detached myself from most of the people.

Behind me, and out of view, there are other opportunities surfacing, but for the time being, I am choosing to look the other way and wallow in my own self pity.

This card says 'what's done is done - and can't be undone' and it is time to push aside the feelings of self denial, and move off in a new direction.

When I look back on this time, the FIVE OF CUPS will be seen as a necessary step in my need to grow as a person, and to be free of the things that were no longer serving me.

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